Mid-Life Crisis and Regrets

In 10 days I will be 27 ... O-M-G! I've been reflecting a lot, and honestly, I've been comparing a lot, as well.  I've been comparing my life against the life of others close to me, and my regrets are haunting my thoughts daily.  I look at people, specifically females, and I compare, compare, compare.  She has a better job than me, she graduated college sooner than me, she is already married, she has children already .... WOMEN YOUNGER THAN ME.  I think, how did I get here, and why did I get here?  Why did I waste time?  Could I have made my life journey completely different? 

I am my own worst enemy, honestly.  But, the truth is, I am here for a reason.  I may not know the reason yet, or maybe I'll never know, but I've made it to 27.  When I look back four years, nine months, and 25 days ago, I am proud.  I'm proud that I'm a responsible adult now.  I'm proud that I'm graduating with my BSW SOON!  I'm proud that I'm in a healthy, loving relationship, and have been for almost two years.  I'm happy that I'm trustworthy, honest, and my heart is no longer blocked by hatred.  I'm proud that I can pay my bills on time, even my out-of-this-world car payment.  Yes, I have regrets - LOTS OF THEM, but I have grown into a woman that I could've only dreamed of almost five years ago.  I'm making a difference in the lives of recovering addicts, and that is a dream within itself.  The lessons that I have learned in my 27 years have given me a purpose. 

So, hello, 27.  I am scared, don't get me wrong, but I'll make it...  I always do. 

Marley and I love you dearly.  You will get to where you're meant to go when it's your time to get there.  Have a little faith in yourself.  XOXO.